Appa
I know you will not be with me in my deathbed. That’s fine. We know certain things will not happen but still yearn for it badly. You taught me the best way to learn - by exploration, discovery and adventure. You gave me the space to make my own mistakes. I learnt certain things so well from you that I did not miss you even on Aug. 18th, 2000. We (me and your wife) handled it not bad at all.
Looking back, I realize I am yet to learn anything new actually. I read well because you taught me to read HINDU – even at the cost of my academics. I write without inhibitions – no big deal. I studied in Carmel Garden. You wrote well and you studied in a Govt. school in Sattur. I lived in the comfort of my amma and appa. You lived in a Harijan hostel during your school years.
I photograph a bit because I had been playing with an SLR since childhood. When did you get your first camera? During your 40s?
I design every now and then. You designed our Ponnaiyarajapuram house, didn’t you?
My only grouse against you is that you were always in a hurry. You left us in a huff. The way you used to when it was late for office.
You should have seen my blog on Ilayaraja. Big people from US appreciated me for that.
Also you did not believe in yourself. You did not have faith in your abilities.
I had faith in my limited abilities. That’s what strained our relationship post ’95.
Probably that comes from mother. My mom is great. How about yours?
I know I scared the hell out of you. Feel sorry for that.
My friends say that with each passing day, I tend to resemble you more and more. I wish I also had your intellect.
January 31st, 2005 at 11:06 pm
I do not have words to describe, how much you have drawn me into this writing in blog.
Karthik, I think I met you 3 years back, you are now writing fully, HEART. You are RIGHTING now…:-) Keep the spirit man. Hats Off to you.
If you were here right in front of me, I would bow down to you.
You write up about APPA is the best, simply superb, Can’t get better than this.
This what is gonna make you the best screen writer.
I can see so much inside you, still hiding, still wants to erupt, let it all out. Keep letting it out every day karthik.
February 1st, 2005 at 6:21 am
Bravo, bravo… Have no words to express my feelings for the posts or the thoughts going on in your mind. I desparately hope you are doing well… For me, you are the pillar of strength for all my issues. Keep well, will see you soon.
June 24th, 2005 at 12:30 am
One step up!!!
Enna azha vechiduvey pola irukku
July 21st, 2006 at 2:25 pm
This post rekindled a lot of memories of my dad. Hmm.. wish I had known more what to do then… I may have saved his life a bit longer…